thank you

these abortion posts were motivated by a passion deep within me for every woman who has ever chosen this route. a passion that comes from personal experiences. i know so well every single thought and emotion that a girl goes through when facing this procedure and the hours, days, weeks, months and years that follow.

i knew, that i knew, that i knew, i had made a very poor decision. and still, i made it a second time.

i knew better.

we dont need to tell women who’ve had abortions that theyve done something wrong. no one told me i did anything wrong. but i knew, deep down, it wasnt right. all on my own – all alone with my private thoughts…i knew. and years later, when i would choose the Lord, that instinct i had about those abortions were confirmed.

the Holy Spirit convicts. it is not our job to convict another – it is the Spirits job and he did well. it wasnt a load of guilt. no, not from the Lord…i was heaping that on quite well all by myself. but it was a sweet and gentle conviction. not from man – from God. when i finally got to the place of realizing that He did, indeed, forgive me and that He had been gently loving me through this healing process, it all became much clearer.

i had not forgiven myself.

i was in that unforgiving place before and after i came to the Lord. i say this…because no one can tell me that my views on abortion are based solely on my faith and belief in God.

no one else around me knew about the abortions after i left california and later when i married brent. i walked through it alone. but had i let people know sooner, i would hope they would’ve extended grace, love and acceptance.

so know, friends…when you showed all your support for these posts this week on your blog, facebook, twitter, word of mouth…you didnt only support me – you supported every single woman who has ever had an abortion. and you quite possibly may have had a hand in preventing a future one. you did that out of a showing of love and compassion. not by throwing bricks of condemnation, judgment or guilt – you extended love and grace.

i am so incredibly overwhelmed with gratitude for each of you right now. i am honored to call you friends. you are good people.

thank you. sincerely…thank you.

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